5 years!

Can't believe it's already been 5 years since we were married! Time has flown by and so much has changed but yet stayed the same. Still happily married and so thankful that he accepts me for who I am. Know that sounds so cliche, but I do appreciate it. I know that I'm not always easy to be around so thank you Ian!
We wanted to go somewhere different for a few days and decided on Fort Bragg. It is so pretty there, a little touristy town kinda out of the way. But, a nice hotel was recommended to us and so we stayed there. Had a nice view of the beach but it did rain most of the time we were there. Luckily on Saturday it was just kinda misting so we were able to go out and do a few things with out getting SOAKED! We have had a pretty stressful year with our work and Ian has been working 60+ hours a week often 6 or 7 days a week for close to a year now so he really needed a little break. Luckily we have a few good guys who we can trust to get the work done so we could go away for the weekend. Anyway really glad for the few days we had, extra thanks to my parents for not only watching Camilla but also the dog!!

There are some botanical gardens there that we went to. 47 acres of land with hundreds of plants, flowers and trees.



Need a place to get married? How about a gorgeous Dalia garden?

I did spend some time here watching the waves. I kept thinking how can anyone not believe in God? Just sitting there watching the ocean and how amazing it is.

Happy Anniversary!

patient and impatient

I need more patience, with others, with life and with my little girl. She is SO good at pushing my buttons, she can find every last button of mine and push it as hard as she can. I have what has been labeled a high maintenance child or a extra independent child. A professional has told me that she needs extra attention and different ways of dicipline and needs it now before she gets into school. He said once you get into school if she is the way she is now that they will start pushing medicine and start pushing special classes.

Before I had her, I was one of those people who thought that once I had my own child that I would have control. That if he/she was naughty that they would get a swift swat and a talking to. I was not one who had patience with other peoples naughty kids. I ALWAYS thought I would have control because I did not want a child who was out of control being bad in the store etc. So.... Now here I am, feeling like I am consistent, maybe too consistent. Maybe all I do is discipline out of fear of her behaviour and what other people think. But, it isn't working. She does what she wants,when she wants. I can't and don't know how to get control over it.

I want her to be someone who when people see her they see a kid, a 3 and a half or so kid. A 3 and a half year old GOOD kid. But it is hard to see that because she seems to show the worst when she is around other people. I am not one of those people who makes excuses for their kid, like, well she's just tired or well she had a hard day yesterday. Or the best one, wow, she's never acted like that before! I know how my daughter behaves, I don't like it. I am doing everything I possibly can plus getting help from other Moms. So I ask for patience from the people around me and I ask for patience for myself. I love her like I've never loved before. I will love her no matter what. But right now I don't love the way she acts. I know it will get better, but for now it is a every day struggle to keep her to a low roar.

I need so much more patience with her, this to will pass. Soon, please?

Just for anyone wondering if this is directed towards them, No it is not. It is just for me.

Auntie time!

Kara was up for special meetings and got to spend a few days with us! We love Auntie time, especially Camilla!
The first night we went to the sun dial bridge, but alas my camera is dumb and wouldn't take pictures right cause it was to dark.
But the next day we went to the lake! It was a perfect day for it, no wind and hardly anyone there.




We went up to Mom and Dad's for the weekend and Landry and Lila were there so the girls got to play together. There is a creek behind my parents house and so we did a little swimming and picked some blackberries.
Showing of their black berry tounges!


We also made some cute cupcakes!

The days with my sister always fly by and everytime she leaves I feel like a Mom letting her child go. I know she is where she needs to be but it is so hard to let go.