New Year

A new year, a new you. That has been my thought the last week. This year I want to remember that every day can be a new day, a new slate, a day to change for the good.
2010 was one of the hardest years I think I've had in a long time. There was also many many good times and good experiences. We have been thankful for the job we have, but it is a very stressful and demanding job. I have tried so hard to be thankful that we have a job, I know there are a lot of people really struggling to make ends meet. But, as I said it is just a really stressful job and Ian works ALOT.



I was glad to finally get a answer this year also about fertility problems, gave me some peace of mind but there are still a lot of unknowns. But, the hope is to start Clomid a fertility drug this month sometime. I have had to learn a lot of patience with this also, it takes time and medicine takes time to do what it needs to do.
Being a mother to a 3 year old has also been one of the hardest things I've done! I have a very beautiful,sweet,amazing little girl. She is also very stubborn and independent. If it's not her idea, well she just doesn't see why she needs to do it. I have struggled so hard trying to understand her and trying to have the patience with her. I have really worked on being more patient and calm with her and that has helped. There are still some really hard days, but she is getting better. I want this year to be a better mother, a more patient mother and to spend more time with just her.



I've also learned this year the power of words spoken, good and bad words. I've been hurt really bad by things said to me and in return said bad things back. There is no going back now with what has been said, but I'm hoping for someday a reconciliation and some mending of hearts. I think that America is one of the worst countries of blaming someone else for what we have said or done. We can always blame someone else for our own actions, so I want to be careful of that for myself.
Through it all, I'm thankful for the experiences this year that have taught me good lessons. I feel this year that I have got a good hard spanking from the Mother of all Mothers!
Love and patience will always win no matter the situation, no matter how long the situation might drag on.