hummm

I have just felt so frusterated and stressed this week. I don't really know why.. Camilla seems to sense it or something and so she is behaving really bad. Sometimes I just do not know what to do with her. It doesn't matter what I do, she still is really bad. I have a really hard time with her misbehaving,I guess because I really want to not raise a brat. I do not want to spoil her, but sometimes I just don't know what else to do. I feel so bad because I end up getting mad at her, but part of it is just because I don't know what else to do. She just doesn't seem to listen to me. I feel like such a bad mother because I yell at her sometimes and I just get so frusterated that I pretty much give up and just start to ignore it or have to leave the room. AAAHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAH I had no idea it would be so hard to raise my own child.

My little girl

 

Needs

My husband asked me what I wanted for Christmas today.. So of course because I am a mother and a woman I had to think about this for a while... I wish I could just say Oh I need this or I want this...... But in this world today, I just feel like there is so much more that is needed, than something trivial that I would want or need.
I want my daughter to know truth, to know the love,joy and peace that comes with being in the truth. I want her to have a true love for God, his son, and all of his people. I want her to have confidence in her parents, to know that her family will love her through thick and thin, like my own parents loved me. I want my husband to know that there is one true way and that is truth and that is what my family and I believe in... I want him to feel a need for something more in his life, to want to make his life available to God. I want to be a help to others, I want to be a loving sister to my breatheren. I want to just feel like I am doing the best I can.
This seems like so much.. But just thiking about Christmas makes me think about the things that we really do need, things that will profit us. In the end this is what we will think about, not how we would like new shoes or fun toys for our kids!=0

awwwww

I stole this from someone else's blog but it is just so touching to me. Yes I'll admit I did cry. It was so cute.
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/us/2008/12/06/nc.santa.soldier.wxii

Random

I found this strange tomatoe the other day at Raleys.
I made these cookies using a frosting called royal icing. It looks cool, but I think these kind of cookies are just made to look at and not eat. They don't taste very good.

 

 

 

 

My cute Great Grandma Crawford.

 

My big girl

This is my new favorite dress and boots!! She looks like such a big girl here! Wahhh