hummm

I have just felt so frusterated and stressed this week. I don't really know why.. Camilla seems to sense it or something and so she is behaving really bad. Sometimes I just do not know what to do with her. It doesn't matter what I do, she still is really bad. I have a really hard time with her misbehaving,I guess because I really want to not raise a brat. I do not want to spoil her, but sometimes I just don't know what else to do. I feel so bad because I end up getting mad at her, but part of it is just because I don't know what else to do. She just doesn't seem to listen to me. I feel like such a bad mother because I yell at her sometimes and I just get so frusterated that I pretty much give up and just start to ignore it or have to leave the room. AAAHAHAAHAHAAHHAHAH I had no idea it would be so hard to raise my own child.