Time is passing oh so quickly

Can NOT believe that in 2 and a half weeks it will already be Thanksgiving!! For some reason just does not seem like November to me. Today we finally had a real storm, lost of rain and hail. Now I look at the calender and it says Nov. 7 wow. Camilla is going to be 4 in a few months, she seems that old but yet I can't believe that it has been that long since I was pregnant. I never really wanted this much space between kids, but maybe it is for the best. Hate to say it, but Camilla has been SO hard for me. So it will be nice to have her grown up a little more if and when we can hopefully have another child. At the earliest she will be almost 5 or over 5 if the medicine works fast and like its supposed too. (PLEASE?)
I'm almost done with the first medicine that they put me on and the next step is some form of a fertility medicine. I don't know much about what they will have me on, my next appt is soon and hopefully I can learn more and get some sort of a round about time frame.
For now I'm really trying to just enjoy mother hood a lot more. To not let the naughtiness or bad behaviour affect me too long. I know the more I can relax and be calm the more she will also. It's been brought to my attention that I see her bad behaviour so much more than anyone else. That I notice all this stuff but people around me don't even see it. Not everything of course, but just little things that I feel like everyone is seeing, in reality it's only me. So, I'm trying to just be more calm and by doing that hopefully she can too. I guess some parents are in la la land about their child and I'm in this anal land of what is she doing, is she being good.. Just breathe and let her be a child. I know that already these days are flying by and I don't want to waste them by being angry at her behaviour and missing the sweet times of her being little.